Sunday, March 13, 2011

My Ailing Body

Yes, I'm sick. Yes, again.

I guess it should be par for the course, but here I'm thinking I'm doing so many better things for my body and then I'm knocked backwards.

This happened the very first time I ever tried to lose weight. While we were living in Colorado I had lost about 18lbs or so, and I contracted viral meningitis. I was hospitalized for a short period and then spent weeks recouping to get back to a less than normal me. Of course this meant I couldn't workout, and I began eating out of necessity instead of eating for my health (I ate whatever was easiest and required the least amount of effort to make or eat - mostly fast food or highly processed foods). I put on the weight I loss plus some by the time I had recovered. Not to mention I was put on a medication with a steroid at the time, which can make you balloon up as well.

So here I am, 31lbs down, and having the same symptoms as I had before. And here I am post hospital discharge trying to regain my normal routine and slip back into my life. This time is harder, I don't have another adult living with me and instead of an adult who could offer help I have a toddler who is also dealing with being sick (just a cold thankfully).

I am not allowing myself to slip into the rut I did last time. I know that as I approach a normal weight/height ratio my body will be healthier and stronger and I have to keep my eye on that goal. This bout of it seems less severe than my first bout or maybe it's just because I've done it before. They also didn't prescribe quite so many "fun" drugs knowing that I would be single parenting a toddler during my recovery. Perhaps that lucidity has an affect on my recovery as well.

I just want to be healthy. I just want to be able to have my body perform the way it should. The weight isn't winning the battle this time. I might be out from the working out for a bit, but I am not putting that weight back on.

For those of you who pray please keep us in your prayers. It's hard to run a household, make meals, care for a toddler when I can only hold my head up for so long at a time. Tonight will be my third night home, and I feel myself getting stronger. In fact my plan is try and create some assemblance of normalcy for Joseph by trying to make dinner, give him a shower, and do his regular bedtime routine.

Monday, March 7, 2011

The High Cost of Living Healthy

This is just a mini rant.

Since I've started losing weight I've been buying healthier foods. Things with lower fat, lower sodium, lots of fresh produce and seafood. I am spending on average about $20 more each week to buy our groceries right now. Of course we don't eat out very often anymore and I'm sure that makes up some of the difference.

I think about all the families that can barely afford the cheapest foods available, let alone something fresh or healthy. It's sad. It's terrible that we live in this world where it's so much cheaper for us to be unhealthy. I think it should be the other way around. Sadly it's not though.

Also, let me mention how frustrating and long the shopping process takes now that I understand the food labels on the products. Like today, I wanted some frickin' spaghettios! I haven't purchased any during this weight loss bout, and I had no idea just how terrible they were. Calorie and fat wise they're okay. The sodium is through the roof though. And do you know that they do not make any sort of low sodium spaghettio or spaghettio like product?

I was able to find some canned soup that only had 50mg of sodium a serving (most soups are over 400mg) but the cost was twice as much as regular soup.

I am learning though and with some practice I should be able to figure the best products and get in and out of the grocery store faster, not cheaper, but definitely faster.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Weekly Weigh-in (3/6/11)

It's been a rough week. I over indulged of one of my favorite foods last Sunday. Then this week I baked cookies for my husband and couldn't resist the cookie dough or the cookies. And to top it all off yesterday was the church winter picnic which meant a smorgasbord of high caloric foods. I was certain I was going to have a gain this week. To see a loss was a pleasant surprise.

I am still drinking about a gallon of water a day. I've added in tea throughout the day as well. I like having something with flavor and since it's calorie free it works out well. I didn't do any exercise this week. I plan on working on that this week.

So here are the stats in comparison to last week (2/27/11).
  • 1 lb lost (bringing total to 31 lbs lost)

Inches lost: total of 1/2 (since 2/27/11)

  • 1/2 inch from hips
So this marks the end of 1 full month of me measuring myself. I am please to announce that during this first month of measuring I lost over 9 inches!

Onto the pics! The first one is from the start of the red dress comparison on 2/9. The next pic was last week's (2/27). And the last pic is today's. I thought it would be good to see the progression. Can you see a change?

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Pre Weigh-in Anxiety

I really look forward to weighing myself on Sundays. It gives me something to look forward to, a big way to see my progress. It's been a bit of a rough week and I'm a little nervous about tomorrow though. I don't mind seeing the same number as last week, I just don't want to see a bigger number.

I let myself splurge a bit and had some Bray's burgers on Sunday night. I felt it was my reward for being 30lbs down. Then I made homemade cookies. Seriously, who can make cookies and not eat some of the raw dough? Then today was the winter picnic at church. That meant a buffet of unlimited (mostly high calorie) foods. So yeah, I am a little nervous.

I was able to wear a top today for I've only been able to wear twice before. It felt good to feel slim. When I got dressed this morning, I really thought I looked noticeably skinnier.

I think I am going to go to the thrift store tonight and see if I can find a belt and maybe a "goal outfit" to work towards. I know it shouldn't be much longer before my red dress fits and I want to have something else to keep me focused.

Thanks to all of you who have offered support and encouragement and given me praise and compliments on my hard work. It's good to feel that all I'm doing isn't going unnoticed.