Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Wrapping Up 2010 and Bringing in 2011

I have been extremely neglectful of my blog lately. I've tried to update periodically to my ttc blog (link to the right), but even that has fallen at the wayside.

So, where to start? My husband was gone for 2 weeks in December, came home for a short leave over Christmas and New Year's and is now back in Georgia. He's been gone for about 17 days this time. Adjusting to his absence feels a little easier. It's a smoother transition because I know what to do and I know what to expect. These absences have been a little bit easier because we have been able to talk, email, and Skype as often as we like. Joseph is now thoroughly convinced that Daddy lives in the webcam.

We have about 30 days left before Joseph and I will fly to Atlanta so spend a long weekend with Daddy. From this point we have about 12 weeks before this training will be completed. It's hard, and not fun at times, but I know in the end this will help our family.

Everyone always asks how JJ is doing. He's doing pretty good. I think this has been his easiest and most enjoyable training session thus far. His has very comfortable accommodations as well.

So, 2010 has been officially over for a couple weeks now. I'll have to admit 2010 brought a season of change to my life. I've learned the hard way who I need in my life and who I don't. It's not been the smoothest of transitions, but I'm happy to eliminate those who were in my life that were toxic and harmful to my well being. I'm a happier and better person because of this. I've learned there are people in this life who will bring you down because they are unhappy or unsatisfied with their life. I know now that those people will take you down with them. I've eliminated the drama and matured and grown in so many ways. I feel like my life is on the right course again. I've surrounded myself with people who are supportive, loving, and mature -- that has made all the difference in the world.

I've heard a lot of people complain about 2010 and be happy that it is over. I can't say it was that horrible of a year though. I mean if definitely had its ups and downs like any other year. But, I don't think it was any worse than any other year. I think some people feel like it was a terrible year because they are short-sighted.

But regardless, it's been a productive year for me. Between June and December I was able to lose a total of 16lbs and keep it off. I am actually down as of today a total of 20lbs since June. I want to live a long, healthy life for my children (Joseph and any future children God may bless us with). I understand that I have a weight problem, and that it will not fix itself. I also understand that if I stay on this course my life will be cut short and full of pain and discomfort. Before I started this weight loss in June I was about 112lbs overweight. I am now down to 92lbs overweight. I have taken myself from a grade 3 (morbid) obesity to a grade 2. I have dropped my BMI more than 3 points. My BMI is still about 12 points higher than it should be, but I'm making progress. I understand that this will be something I have to think about and focus on for the rest of my life to keep me healthy. But I resolved last summer to make this stick and so far so good. I am currently 1lb away from my pre-pregnancy weight with Joseph. Pretty soon I'll be out of the 200's. I hope to never see them again. I'm hoping that before we get pregnant I will be far enough away from the 200's that even with pregnancy weight gain, I will never see that number again.

I'm having a little bit of trouble with my blood pressure. But I am trying to convince the doctor to let me continue the weight loss bit without putting me on the blood pressure meds. I think I can take care of this without medication. Although I'm pretty sure being a single Mom right now has been having a terrible effect on my BP as well. As of right now he's willing to monitor me and see if I can make progress.

I was able to reconnect with an old friend very recently. We just drifted apart during the time I lived in Colorado. We both were dealing with quite a bit when we moved back and didn't get a chance to really connect. But, we've been spending some time together lately, and I've excited to see this friendship rekindled. It's amazing how different this friendship is in comparison to the unhealthy one that ended last summer. It's a good feeling. Her, Dana, and I grew up together and have had periods of ins and outs in our friendships. I'm happy to have healthy, strong friendships with both of them again.

I would also like to say that I have a friend going through a break up right now. She found out her boyfriend of over 2 years was cheating on her. It's a sad situation. It's really terrible to find out the person that you thought someone was is so totally off from the real person they are. This boyfriend was a close friend of ours as well. In fact there was a time when we thought this person was such a stand up, responsible, and mature adult that we had considered making him the Godfather of our next child. I'm glad we didn't make that mistake. It just goes to show you that no matter how much you know someone, they can still fool you. I'm proud of my friend though. She has shown amazing courage and strength during this whole fiasco. She is so brave. I don't know how she's managed to keep everything together but she's done an amazing job. She is one of the strongest women I know.

Joseph's loving his gymnastics class. He is learning a lot and enjoys all of his new friends. It's been a great outlet for his energy. I look forward to seeing him progress from the toddler gymnastics into a more structured preschool gymnastics class. I think he may have a knack for this.

That kid is amazing. He keeps me so focused and busy that I hardly know what day it is. It's good with JJ being gone. The structure, the routine, it all helps to keep me sane. I think these absences would be so much harder without Joseph. I'm so glad that God gave him to us.

I've had a couple people ask me if I'm sure if I want more children considering that Jeremiah could be gone for long periods of time. Of course I want more children. Is it hard doing it on my own for long stretches? Yes, of course. I'd be lying if I said anything different. But my husband's career path isn't going to dictate my life's goals and dreams. Yes, I want more children. Yes, I know there will be times I will be doing it on my own. Yes, I still want them. Am I crazy? Well, maybe, but this is what I was born to do. Any children that God chooses to give us will be our legacy. I know it won't be easy. My husband's children are and will be pieces of him, when he is away for whatever reason, they will be here with me and part of him will live through in them. Yes, I want more kids. Have you met the son we already have? Why wouldn't I want more?

Well, I'm sure there's more to blog about but I'm getting exhausted. I will try to be a little more faithful to my blogging. Hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year.